Change of Plans.... again
I decided yesterday morning to have a laparoscopy done. It was one of those things that I knew I should do but had so many excuses not to do it. I don't want to be in pain and out of commission for several days. I don't want to have to wait even longer to start injectables. (It is pretty ridiculous that we decided back in May to try to have a baby and now it is looking like November or December before we can actually start.) Everyone in the Mullerian Anomalies board says people should do it to get the right diagnosis. I am not really sure if I really care if I have a UU or something else because none of the other things I could have could be repaired by surgery anyway meaning that the course of action will still be the same no matter the diagnosis. However, the pain I have been in during my period lately is unbearable and I want to know what is causing that and hopefully get it fixed.
The date is set. October 6 I'll be going under the knife. DH is taking off work for 3 days. I still have to let my mom know about the surgery (and I will still manage not to let her know about the TTC part because I am awesome like that) so she can figure out how to get DS1 to preschool that day and take care of DS2 as well.
I was happy about my decision up until I got off the phone from making the appointment. Now I just want to cancel... but still hoping they find a ton of endometriosis in there that they can suck out and make me all better.
Post-op appointment isn't until October 26 so it looks like we won't be trying to have a baby until after that. Or maybe I will get knocked up the natural way this cycle and we can just cancel all this silly surgery business.
There is always the chance too that after this surgery I could be told there is really no chance I can get pregnant. I am okay with that too. I pretty much decided three years ago that I would never get pregnant and mourned all that. In a way that news would be a relief. We wouldn't start spending money on more infertility stuff and instead just go on to our third adoption as we had planned to do years ago when we decided we were going to become an adoptive family.
The date is set. October 6 I'll be going under the knife. DH is taking off work for 3 days. I still have to let my mom know about the surgery (and I will still manage not to let her know about the TTC part because I am awesome like that) so she can figure out how to get DS1 to preschool that day and take care of DS2 as well.
I was happy about my decision up until I got off the phone from making the appointment. Now I just want to cancel... but still hoping they find a ton of endometriosis in there that they can suck out and make me all better.
Post-op appointment isn't until October 26 so it looks like we won't be trying to have a baby until after that. Or maybe I will get knocked up the natural way this cycle and we can just cancel all this silly surgery business.
There is always the chance too that after this surgery I could be told there is really no chance I can get pregnant. I am okay with that too. I pretty much decided three years ago that I would never get pregnant and mourned all that. In a way that news would be a relief. We wouldn't start spending money on more infertility stuff and instead just go on to our third adoption as we had planned to do years ago when we decided we were going to become an adoptive family.
posted by AM | 11:11 AM
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