15w, 3d
Another day down in this pregnancy stuff. Thought maybe the barfing got better yet and then I completely lost my lunch yesterday and my breakfast this morning. I'll still take that over throwing up 10 times a day.
Had an appointment today. First up was an u/s that was mainly to monitor changes in my massive ovary. I can't remember the exact measurement (maybe 14.5 cm across?) but it appears to be decreasing slowly in size. I asked if the tech could check to see if it was possible to determine the gender of these little people. She seemed less than enthusiastic, saying only that she could go over the general area but basically she wasn't going to tell me anything. I totally get that it is still pretty early. I was rather disappointed, not so much that we couldn't determine the gender, but that the tech barely tried. She basically waved the wand over and was like, "Yeah, see, they are kinda stacked up in there and their legs are together, oh and this one has its ankles crossed." The end. She could at least tried to poke them and prod them one little nudge.
The other purpose of the u/s was to check my cervical length,, which was done because I suggested it at my last appointment. The tech was having difficulties so the doctor that was hanging out in the u/s area had to come check it out. My cervix measured at 3.1 cm which is pretty good. I think 3.5 is really what they were looking for but really anything over 2 is good.
Then off to my appointment with MFM. I wasn't overly impressed with the dr that I saw today. I didn't really have much to say or many questions, and he didn't really have much to say either. He said that there was nothing going on now that was indicative that labor was going to start prior to 32 weeks. Yeah, I guess that was nice to hear but I also felt it was a big line of bullshit. Sure there might be nothing NOW that would indicate labor starting early but something could still happen at the drop of a hat without warning and he seemed to be completely overlooking that fact. I brought up that the last two dr's I saw talked about doing another cervical check at 18 weeks. He felt that was unnecessary and another one really didn't need to be done until around 22-24 weeks. Unfortunately for him, I have done way too much reading on this and know that incompetent cervixes typically show dilation between 14-24 weeks. He said he would be happy to schedule me for another cervical measurement around 18 weeks if I really wanted one. I said I did and I have my appointment scheduled for that. At least it was easy to get what I wanted.
I also have my "big" anatomy scan u/s scheduled for Sept 16. No one better be crossing their legs that day. DH should be able to go with me to that appointment. There is a small chance the appointment could change because apparently they have to schedule me for two back to back appointments since each twin will have its own anatomy scan done, thus doubling the time.
Still feeling in denial and rather unconnected to these babies. One of the reasons I was really hoping to learn the genders was so maybe I could start feeling more connected and start thinking more about my son(s) and/or daughter(s) than just "these babies". It is still feeling a lot like the whole adoption process did. Sure I am sick and stuff, but these babies are more of an idea and a dream than actually living things that are here with me. All the through the adoption process all I could do was wait and see what was going to happen and that is pretty much how it is now too. I have seen pictures and people assure me that these babies are really there, but maybe I just have to hold them in my arms first to really believe it.
Busy day tomorrow. Going to a yard sale in the morning that is supposed to have a lot of kid/baby stuff. I am going to do my best to buy something for these babies kicking around in my belly. I haven't been able to bring myself to purchase anything yet. In the afternoon I am off to a cloth diapering orientation to learn all about cloth diapers since that is something I am hoping to do at some point with these these babies.
Had an appointment today. First up was an u/s that was mainly to monitor changes in my massive ovary. I can't remember the exact measurement (maybe 14.5 cm across?) but it appears to be decreasing slowly in size. I asked if the tech could check to see if it was possible to determine the gender of these little people. She seemed less than enthusiastic, saying only that she could go over the general area but basically she wasn't going to tell me anything. I totally get that it is still pretty early. I was rather disappointed, not so much that we couldn't determine the gender, but that the tech barely tried. She basically waved the wand over and was like, "Yeah, see, they are kinda stacked up in there and their legs are together, oh and this one has its ankles crossed." The end. She could at least tried to poke them and prod them one little nudge.
The other purpose of the u/s was to check my cervical length,, which was done because I suggested it at my last appointment. The tech was having difficulties so the doctor that was hanging out in the u/s area had to come check it out. My cervix measured at 3.1 cm which is pretty good. I think 3.5 is really what they were looking for but really anything over 2 is good.
Then off to my appointment with MFM. I wasn't overly impressed with the dr that I saw today. I didn't really have much to say or many questions, and he didn't really have much to say either. He said that there was nothing going on now that was indicative that labor was going to start prior to 32 weeks. Yeah, I guess that was nice to hear but I also felt it was a big line of bullshit. Sure there might be nothing NOW that would indicate labor starting early but something could still happen at the drop of a hat without warning and he seemed to be completely overlooking that fact. I brought up that the last two dr's I saw talked about doing another cervical check at 18 weeks. He felt that was unnecessary and another one really didn't need to be done until around 22-24 weeks. Unfortunately for him, I have done way too much reading on this and know that incompetent cervixes typically show dilation between 14-24 weeks. He said he would be happy to schedule me for another cervical measurement around 18 weeks if I really wanted one. I said I did and I have my appointment scheduled for that. At least it was easy to get what I wanted.
I also have my "big" anatomy scan u/s scheduled for Sept 16. No one better be crossing their legs that day. DH should be able to go with me to that appointment. There is a small chance the appointment could change because apparently they have to schedule me for two back to back appointments since each twin will have its own anatomy scan done, thus doubling the time.
Still feeling in denial and rather unconnected to these babies. One of the reasons I was really hoping to learn the genders was so maybe I could start feeling more connected and start thinking more about my son(s) and/or daughter(s) than just "these babies". It is still feeling a lot like the whole adoption process did. Sure I am sick and stuff, but these babies are more of an idea and a dream than actually living things that are here with me. All the through the adoption process all I could do was wait and see what was going to happen and that is pretty much how it is now too. I have seen pictures and people assure me that these babies are really there, but maybe I just have to hold them in my arms first to really believe it.
Busy day tomorrow. Going to a yard sale in the morning that is supposed to have a lot of kid/baby stuff. I am going to do my best to buy something for these babies kicking around in my belly. I haven't been able to bring myself to purchase anything yet. In the afternoon I am off to a cloth diapering orientation to learn all about cloth diapers since that is something I am hoping to do at some point with these these babies.
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