Fertile

So it is looking like I am fertile. Which is just funny in all sorts of ways. First of all, because I am totally not fertile. And yet I've got all these signs pointing to me being fertile at this point in time. I have egg white cervical mucus (EWCM) out the ying yang (and by ying yang I mean vagina) and from charting in the past, that is not necessarily a common thing for me. I didn't have any EWCM at all last month. This pretty much sucks.

I can't ovulate yet. I just can't. I need to wait at least another week. My luteal phase tends to be pretty short, not the typical 2 weeks. I have an appointment with my RE on July 27th, which will be day 29 of my cycle. If I ovulate in the next couple days, I will never make it until July 27th without starting a new cycle. If my cycle starts before my next appointment, there is no way we will be able to start any sort of treatment for my next cycle. Although, the more I think about it, the less likely we will be able to do anything next cycle anyway. I'll need time to get all my meds and all my instructions on how to shoot myself up with my injectables and I am getting the idea already that no one (as in the medical people) really seems in any hurry to get any of this baby making stuff underway.

And this whole fertile thing is a joke because we can't even have sex. We are in the abstaining for the sonohysterogram period. Not that having sex would get me pregnant anyway. Sex might get people pregnant but not me.

Less than a week until the sonohysterogram. It could show that I have a pea-sized uterus that could never sustain a pregnancy anyway so none of this might matter at all. I asked DH if he thought it would be weird if I took my newest copy of Adoptive Families magazine with me to read in the waiting room of the fertility clinic while I waited for my test.