Cycle 1, CD 11
I kind of sorta got my wish about this cycle being over. It isn't over yet, but there is an end in sight. Went off to the city bright and early this morning to get b/w. From the moment I got up this morning, I could feel my ovaries. They hurt. It hurts to bend over, stretch to the side, twist, or breathe too deeply. This morning it was mostly my right ovary, which I felt was a good sign. Although now it is more on my left side. My ovaries feel so big and heavy and slightly burning. They feel so big that when I got home from the RE I asked DH if he could see them sticking out. He couldn't.
My E2 was up to 1078 and progesterone was at 2.5. I knew I hadn't ovulated yet because of my temp this morning. Obviously, I am not the doctor and they know more than me, but seriously, I have no hope for this cycle. Apparently someone else does. Tonight at 9:30pm I am to give myself the HCG shot. That will trigger my body to ovulate in 36 hours. Then Tuesday DH goes in at 7:00am to do his thing. I go in at 9:30am for my IUI. My RE is in surgery that day so I get to have a total stranger try to knock me up. I know I had this one 12mm follicle on the right yesterday, as well as a couple 11's and 10's. I don't know how fast these things grow. But, I am just not feeling it. Then there is always the chance that I could ovulate on my own today or tomorrow and we won't catch that egg. Knowing how much time and money we are shelling out for this, I would just feel much more confident if we were in a text book perfect scenario. Instead I just feel like we are in this let's just try it and see what happens scenario.
Then there is the logistics of it all. The kids can't really go with me to the IUI. DH might have jury duty on Tuesday, and he won't know until Monday evening. My mom is busy Tuesday getting her other grandchildren off to school. It is all going to work out in the end but it is going to be complicated and rushed and require a ton of advance planning (and I had to lie to my mom about why I needed her to watch the kids). I remember fondly thinking back when we first decided to start trying to have a baby years ago how much fun it was going to be to have all that sex and excitement. Here we are trying to have a baby and it involves neither sex nor excitement. Just stress and frustration.
Wish me luck with the HSC shot. That needle is big.
My E2 was up to 1078 and progesterone was at 2.5. I knew I hadn't ovulated yet because of my temp this morning. Obviously, I am not the doctor and they know more than me, but seriously, I have no hope for this cycle. Apparently someone else does. Tonight at 9:30pm I am to give myself the HCG shot. That will trigger my body to ovulate in 36 hours. Then Tuesday DH goes in at 7:00am to do his thing. I go in at 9:30am for my IUI. My RE is in surgery that day so I get to have a total stranger try to knock me up. I know I had this one 12mm follicle on the right yesterday, as well as a couple 11's and 10's. I don't know how fast these things grow. But, I am just not feeling it. Then there is always the chance that I could ovulate on my own today or tomorrow and we won't catch that egg. Knowing how much time and money we are shelling out for this, I would just feel much more confident if we were in a text book perfect scenario. Instead I just feel like we are in this let's just try it and see what happens scenario.
Then there is the logistics of it all. The kids can't really go with me to the IUI. DH might have jury duty on Tuesday, and he won't know until Monday evening. My mom is busy Tuesday getting her other grandchildren off to school. It is all going to work out in the end but it is going to be complicated and rushed and require a ton of advance planning (and I had to lie to my mom about why I needed her to watch the kids). I remember fondly thinking back when we first decided to start trying to have a baby years ago how much fun it was going to be to have all that sex and excitement. Here we are trying to have a baby and it involves neither sex nor excitement. Just stress and frustration.
Wish me luck with the HSC shot. That needle is big.
posted by AM | 11:14 AM
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