Stupid F'in Uterus

I am so sick of this stupid uterus of mine. I am so thankful that it failed me because otherwise, I wouldn't get to be the mommy of my fabulous boys. However, couldn't it have failed me without reminding me all the time of how much it sucks?? I woke up last night from pain. At least I was smart enough this time to remember that when the pain starts, it won't go away without drugs. I didn't hang out in bed and wonder if maybe I should take something. I just got up and did. For the next hour and a half I suffered, feeling like the left side of my pelvic area was going to explode... or hoping it might explode because at least then the pressure would be relieved. The left is where my rudimentary horn is, the horn that initially I was told I didn't have but always expected I did have because that is where the pain ALWAYS is. This is the rudimentary horn that my RE doesn't think has an endometrial lining and shouldn't cause me any issues. Ha! I get what I presume some normal period cramps, but I know this is not normal. Just on my left side, and it is more like pressure and immense pain, not uncomfortable cramps. I thought at one point last night that maybe I should get up and take a Percocet leftover from my surgery. And then I finally fell back to sleep and when I got up, no more pain. I can feel it kind of starting up again now. I just popped some Tylenol in hopes to ward it off. I just want this stupid rudimentary horn out of me. I know that once it is gone, I can at least feel normal when I have my period. Who knows when I will get the chance to go in for surgery again. Probably not until we are done with all these infertility treatments. Maybe if it doesn't work out the first couple months I'll take a break from the treatments and get sliced open again. I don't think I ever had this pain when I was on any sort of hormonal birth control. That could work too, but not so well for trying to get pregnant. Besides, I just want the pain to be gone forever. Rip that stupid rudimentary horn out!