Cycle 1, 15 dpIUI

I was feeling pretty down last night and decided instead of just being depressed, I was going to do something. I was supposed to call to make an appointment for a blood pg test for tomorrow. Going tomorrow would just be an insane amount of stress. (Have to get the kids up early and out the door, spend an hour in the car with them and feed them breakfast while I drive, get blood taken, spend another hour in the car, hope we make it back in time to get DS1 to preschool. And all of that just so they can tell me that I am not pregnant.) AF probably won't show up as long as I am still taking progesterone suppositories. I am supposed to keep taking them until AF does show up or I get a negative blood pregnancy test. I can't move on to the next cycle until AF shows up. So pretty much nothing is moving forward at this point.

I decided to un-medicate myself. I broke my rule and pulled out one of my expired pregnancy tests last night. It was really expired, like it expired 3 years ago. I was still feeling pretty confident in using it though. Of course, BFN. Just what I was expecting. I didn't use my progesterone suppository last night. My temp still didn't drop this morning but hopefully I am closer to starting cycle number 2. If AF doesn't show up by Friday, then I will call to make an appointment for Saturday. That way I can make the trip to the city early Saturday morning while DH is home with the kids. That's my plan. Completely responsible? Probably not. But far more responsible than I have been known to be in my life at times. And I am feel way more emotionally stable today than I have the last two days so it was all worth it. Oh, and I have only peed twice so far today.