Cycle 1, 7 dpIUI

I guess I should just admit that this stupid 2 week wait (2ww) is getting to me. Maybe not in the normal way since I don't really think I am pregnant. Maybe just in the way that I just want to get this cycle over with so we can move on. Of course, there is still some hope left in me. I don't want to have hope and be let down but it is there.

When I had my IUI done exactly a week ago now, I had to sign some paper consenting to have the procedure done and there was some line on there about having some lady call me to check on me if I wanted to. I figured, what the hey. I'd see what she had to say. She called last night and I really don't know what her purpose was. She said she was calling because she knew that the 2ww could be hard. I said something about how it really wasn't because I didn't have any hope that I was pregnant since I am convinced I ovulated before my IUI. She said she wasn't a nurse and really couldn't offer any thoughts on that. Then we hung up.

I went from having zero hope to having an inkling of some this morning, in the oddest of ways. I always have the most bitchiest of my days 7 day after I ovulate. I thought two days ago I was pretty bitchy. I totally underestimated my bitchiness. I was insane this morning. There was (mostly) irrational screaming at my kids, sitting on my couch crying while DS1 kept hugging me and telling me it would be okay, being pissed at DH for his tone of voice, flipping out and hanging up on my mom, and crying hysterically on the phone to DH. Thankfully all that passed and I am back to my normal moderately bitchy self.

Of course, all signs still point to me ovulating before the IUI, except for my bitchometer. I wish it was the weekend. AF should show up Saturday or Sunday if I ovulated before my IUI. Then I can finally give myself a pat on the back for being right and be justifiably pissed off at my RE office.