18w, 2d
I guess I can pretty safely say that I am halfway there. Full term with twins is considered to be about 36 weeks and I am over 18 now. Never thought I would see this day, and definitely never thought I would see this day with twins. Holy shit I am having twins.
Tomorrow I go in for a cervical length check. I suppose the best way to describe my feelings over this right now is just anxious. I'm not necessarily worried. It will be what it is and there is nothing I can do about it but follow my dr's orders. I've been far more active these past couple weeks than I have been since the beginning of this pregnancy and because it was on the shorter than average length 3 weeks ago, I wouldn't be surprised if there was shortening. I invited my mom out to lunch today because I thought that there is a possibility that I could go in tomorrow and they could tell me to come home and stay and bed and there will be no more lunches out for me. If that is what happens, then it happens. Worrying isn't going to change that and it certainly won't do me any good.
I ran into a lady I kinda sorta know while we were out at lunch. I met her through a playgroup I used to go to. We are friends on FB and she is friends with people I know, but that is about as close as we are. I ran into her once at my RE's office. After that meeting, she sent me a message on FB and told me that she had had surgery due to Asherman's Syndrome. I never really talked uteruses with her before since I don't really know her. Anyway, saw her today and she congratulated me and said I was looking good and asked how I was. She brought up how she has all kinds of issues with her own reproductive organs, what with the Asherman's and then mentioned that she had a uterine abnormality. I exclaimed, "Me too! What do you have!?!?" I hope she wasn't all weirded out my enthusiasm over her messed up uterus but it just doesn't happen all that often that you find someone who is broken similarly to how you are broken. Turns out she has a bicornuate/septate uterus. The dr's told her it was pretty much a miracle that she was able to carry her daughter (who is now 2) with her septum in tact. I'd say!
So here I am, 18 weeks along. I feel babies moving often. (It is becoming a familiar and calming feeling to feel them move, and getting less creepy.) Friends and family tell me all the time that everything is going to work out, that maybe I will have these babies a little early but lots of people have their babies early and the babies do just fine. Mostly I have just been waiting for the bottom to drop out up until now. Never thought I would get pregnant. Never thought both of the twins would stick around. Never thought I would make it out of the first trimester. Never thought I would make it this far at all. Now I am really believing it. I am really believing all the things friends and family say. Which is totally absurd because what do they know about my body, my babies, and my uterus? In a way it is more terrifying than ever. Up until now, I was prepared for something to suddenly go drastically wrong. Now I am not. Now I am convinced that things will work out just fine, which means it will be a huge slap in the face if suddenly things go drastically wrong. Mostly I just think that things can't go wrong at this point. I have seen these babies countless times on u/s and there has never been a problem with them. I can feel them and I know they are there and growing and alive and REAL people. How could anything stop them from coming into this world healthy?
Tomorrow I go in for a cervical length check. I suppose the best way to describe my feelings over this right now is just anxious. I'm not necessarily worried. It will be what it is and there is nothing I can do about it but follow my dr's orders. I've been far more active these past couple weeks than I have been since the beginning of this pregnancy and because it was on the shorter than average length 3 weeks ago, I wouldn't be surprised if there was shortening. I invited my mom out to lunch today because I thought that there is a possibility that I could go in tomorrow and they could tell me to come home and stay and bed and there will be no more lunches out for me. If that is what happens, then it happens. Worrying isn't going to change that and it certainly won't do me any good.
I ran into a lady I kinda sorta know while we were out at lunch. I met her through a playgroup I used to go to. We are friends on FB and she is friends with people I know, but that is about as close as we are. I ran into her once at my RE's office. After that meeting, she sent me a message on FB and told me that she had had surgery due to Asherman's Syndrome. I never really talked uteruses with her before since I don't really know her. Anyway, saw her today and she congratulated me and said I was looking good and asked how I was. She brought up how she has all kinds of issues with her own reproductive organs, what with the Asherman's and then mentioned that she had a uterine abnormality. I exclaimed, "Me too! What do you have!?!?" I hope she wasn't all weirded out my enthusiasm over her messed up uterus but it just doesn't happen all that often that you find someone who is broken similarly to how you are broken. Turns out she has a bicornuate/septate uterus. The dr's told her it was pretty much a miracle that she was able to carry her daughter (who is now 2) with her septum in tact. I'd say!
So here I am, 18 weeks along. I feel babies moving often. (It is becoming a familiar and calming feeling to feel them move, and getting less creepy.) Friends and family tell me all the time that everything is going to work out, that maybe I will have these babies a little early but lots of people have their babies early and the babies do just fine. Mostly I have just been waiting for the bottom to drop out up until now. Never thought I would get pregnant. Never thought both of the twins would stick around. Never thought I would make it out of the first trimester. Never thought I would make it this far at all. Now I am really believing it. I am really believing all the things friends and family say. Which is totally absurd because what do they know about my body, my babies, and my uterus? In a way it is more terrifying than ever. Up until now, I was prepared for something to suddenly go drastically wrong. Now I am not. Now I am convinced that things will work out just fine, which means it will be a huge slap in the face if suddenly things go drastically wrong. Mostly I just think that things can't go wrong at this point. I have seen these babies countless times on u/s and there has never been a problem with them. I can feel them and I know they are there and growing and alive and REAL people. How could anything stop them from coming into this world healthy?
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