21w, 1d

Something happened to my belly today. It is huge and shaped really different than it has been. How did this happen? I think it might have doubled in size over the past 24 hours. If it keeps this up, it is going to need its own zip code by the end of the week.

Feeling far more mentally stable after my near breakdown two days ago. I was so out of it I failed to mention a couple things I intended to. If only my memory was working properly enough to remember those things...

I ran into a woman from my old neighborhood at the used kids' items sale I went to last night. I haven't seen her for a year and really never knew her all that well apart from small chats when we would pass each other in the neighborhood. She took one look at me, pointed at my belly and exclaimed, "What's this!?!?" I was actually pretty excited that someone I don't see often knew right away that I was pregnant and not thought that I had just gotten fat since they saw me last! The sale I was at was hosted by the Moms of Multiples group in that area so of course everyone working the sale had twins (or multiples of some sort). As soon as I told the old neighbor I was pregnant with twins, another twin mom decided she should join the conversation and be super friendly. Or annoying. However you want to look at it. This strange woman who I had never met asked me, "Are they natural?" I have heard other twin moms complaining of this question. I knew exactly what she meant but also really wanted to respond with something super snarky but seriously, what business is it of anyone's how I conceived these kids?? I really wanted to say something like, "They are human beings. Isn't that natural?" Instead I ignored her and went back to talking to the old neighbor who I actually know. But, this strange lady was relentless and asked the question again. I felt like she was judging me. Like maybe she felt that if my twins weren't conceived by sex alone then I wasn't a "real" twin mom or something. In the end I managed to dodge the question by half lying. By then the strange woman had heard the old neighbor and I talking about how my other two kids were adopted and the old neighbor said she assumed I couldn't have biological children. I ended up saying something like we weren't doing anything to prevent getting pregnant for a couple years and then decided to actually try and now I'm pregnant with twins.

I can't remember anything else I was going to mention the last post but forgot.

DS1 is kinda excited about these two new brothers. He has been talking about them every couple of days unprompted. He is the one I am more worried about after they come because he is so competitive for attention (or anything really) and has made it clear in the past that he is perfectly happy with the one brother he has. However, he seems to like to break the news to people that he is getting two new brothers. Last week when I had the 1 hour glucose test done I said I was going to the doctor. He asked me if I was going to find out if the babies were big enough yet "so the doctor could take them out". DS2 doesn't really talk about the babies. He might join in the conversation when we are already talking about it but he is notorious for living in his own little pretend world that only affects the here and now and his life. He LOVES babies though so I know he will love playing with them and being around them once they are here. I did overhear him today telling a lady I know with a baby how he was going to get two new babies. Glad to know that he actually is somewhat "getting" it even if he doesn't mention it often.

And just to pat myself on my back today, the battery in my car died today leaving me and DS2 stranded. I didn't stress at all. I knew stressing was not going to fix my car but more importantly, it was not going to help me entertain DS2 while we waited to be rescued nor would it make my health situation any good. So, I just handled it. Car is all better now and I am all kinds of awesome for being done freaking out about things... for the moment.