33w, 5d

I'm miserable. Not just your feeling huge and tired because you're pregnant miserable. I've been throwing up all day and have the runs. All classic signs of preterm labor, but also signs of withdrawal from percoset. I ran out of the good drugs yesterday. After being on them for over three weeks I would not be surprised if I had become somewhat addicted. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed it is labor. Would love to make it awhile longer but I have reached the point where I'm ready to make these kids fend for themselves (with the great NICU staff for support) just so I can get some relief. This momma isn't going to be able to be a very good momma if I just keep getting sicker.

Nurse visited today. My blood pressure was 140/90. She said that was high but not high enough to call the dr. Still has me paranoid. I still just have the two open wounds and the one is almost healed. I also still have that third spot that has a little pinhole that this nurse likes to squeeze the shit out of to get all the yellowish gook out of. She thought at first maybe my sickness was from some virus that has been going around but decided to rule it out since I don't have a fever.

Hopefully I can make it until my marathon of appointments tomorrow (u/s, dr appt, NST). Also hoping they decide tomorrow to keep me and get these babies out for whatever reason - growth issues, high blood pressure on my point, because my body is done being pregnant. DH installed the car seats today just in case and we are slowly getting a bag packed. Planning on taking the bag with us tomorrow. Although I said maybe the hospital bag is like an umbrella and we should leave it at home - it never rains when you remember your umbrella but always does when you forget it.

No more possible blood on the TP today. Maybe once there could have been. I've felt maybe two or three contractions today. Thinking we need to step up these contractions.