26w, 6d

I've been feeling like ass. Complete and total ass. It started the night after the hospital tour. I woke up in the middle of the night with the most awful back pain. It was really bad. I threw my back out twice in my life and that hurt like hell, but at least the shooting killer pain only really showed up when I moved. This was that horrible pain but constant and no position would relieve it. I considered waking up DH when it first happened because I was convinced it had to be labor related. After about an hour it did start to subside. However, I have been dealing with that crap on and off since then. It comes on pretty sudden and I am done. My whole body is unable to function. I get nauseous, weak, and feel like death. The only thing I have found to help is if I get on all fours and put my chest on my yoga ball for about 30 minutes. Then I am back to pretty much normal for several hours. I had plans to visit a friend today that I had to cancel due to this pain. I ended up calling my dr just because I was so paranoid that it was all pre-term labor related and not just simple back pain. The nurse and dr discussed it and decided that it didn't sound labor related, just unfortunate pain from having a huge ovary still, two babies, and uterus that is positioned mainly off to one side.

All this pain did have me pretty convinced that this pregnancy might not last too much longer. Part of me isn't too upset about that. I am not a fan of being pregnant. September was actually pretty good. I felt pretty good. I wasn't worried every second of losing these babies. I certainly wasn't in this much pain. But, other than September, every other part of being pregnant has sucked. I hung out with my friend Google for a bit tonight. The original object was to convince myself that if I don't last too much longer, these little babies will be okay. Instead I came across pictures and information about premature babies that convinced me that I can put up with this pain and annoyance and sickness and hatred of being pregnant longer because it will all be worth it to have bigger, stronger, healthier babies.