Cycle Zero

I thought maybe I would have a couple more days, but AF showed up today. Looks like there will likely be no special attempt to get pregnant this cycle since my dr probably doesn't even have the results from DH's SA yet. Yesterday I figured I should probably start charting again because I have a feeling my dr will want me to anyway, and since we are actually going to try to have a baby and not just not prevent, it could be helpful to get an idea when I might be fertile. (I feel weird even thinking that I could possibly be fertile at some point in time.) I got on Fertility Friend yesterday to see if I still had my lifetime membership there that I purchased back in 2005. I did. I was confused for a minute why it said I had charted during two cycles in 2007 and even more confused why one of those cycles showed a positive pregnancy test. I have never had a positive pregnancy test in my life. Then I remembered that I gave my BFF my account information and said that she could use it when she was TTC. I am not sure I ever really knew if she had used my account or not. (Hi BFF, since I know you are reading this and you are still the only person I know of that actually reads this.)

Before settling in to watch some hockey this evening, I went on a search for my thermometer. After searching two bathrooms it was finally located, along with a pregnancy test I didn't even know I had. It is probably expired, but hopefully it will be put to good use at some point in my future.

I went shopping with Val today. She asked me if DH and I were still planning on adopting #3. I considered telling her our plans but decided against it. I think I said something about how it wasn't completely out of the picture but also not something we were actively working towards at this time. Mostly I just danced around the subject.

I purchased four pairs of shorts today. I am not a big shopper and usually I don't buy clothes unless I really need them. My shopping was just about halted back in 2005 when we were TTC before. I refused to buy anything, convinced that I would end up pregnant at any minute and anything I purchased wouldn't fit before long. I don't know if I am just being realistic by purchasing all those shorts today or if secretly I just don't have a ton of hope. Mostly though, I think I just really needed some shorts.