Shakin' the Funk

Feeling much less in a funk than I have been. Still sucks that I am currently not working toward anything, but not really anything I can do about it. I was really sick over the weekend. Couldn't get out of bed. Thought I was going to die. My body ached just from having to lay in bed so long. Made me really hope that if I do end up pregnant that I never have to face bed rest. I don't think I could handle bed rest.

Somehow, though I felt like I was facing death, I think I might have ovulated and managed to have sex at the right time. Not that we were trying to plan that. Not that I think that perfectly timed sex would ever lead to a baby. Oddly, I still manage to hold on to just a simmer or realization that there could be a miracle. Not really sure if I really ovulated though. I was charting just so I would have a heads up on where I am in my cycle. Fertility Friend said I ovulated on Friday, then changed its mind today and now thinks I didn't ovulate. I don't care enough to try to over analyze it.

Found out that a friend is pregnant. Another friend told me just so I wouldn't be blindsided by the information. I am so far passed feeling bad about my fertility situation because others don't have to face it. Never really got feeling bad for myself because other people have it easier. Doesn't keep me from wondering if someday I might not have it so hard.