Cycle 4, 12 dpIUI
Yesterday, like most days, I went back and forth between thinking there is no way I am pregnant and there is no way I am not pregnant. There were times during the day when I felt perfectly normal. Those were usually the times when I was completely sure I wasn't pregnant. Then there were times when I felt like utter shit, rundown, queasy, bloated and I would think that there was no way I could be feeling that way and not be pregnant.
I kept thinking that tomorrow was the day that AF watch would begin. Then I started thinking about past cycles which led me to looking up and over-analyzing every cycle in the past 6 months on FF. Around noon today I realized that AF watch begins today. During about 90% of my cycles, AF shows up in mid afternoon 12 days after I ovulate. On rare occasions it will hold off and I will wake up on the morning of 13 days after I ovulate to discover AF has arrived. I recall once recently that AF showed up around dinner time 12 dpo. Realizing around noon today that at some point in the next 24 hours I would find out if AF was late or not made me become quite crazy.
We had a picnic to go to today. Good, something to distract me from what was to come. We left right after I discovered today was the beginning of AF watch. I felt so crampy suddenly and my back was really aching for the entire hour drive there. So for the entire hour I figured I would arrive at the picnic and discover AF had arrived. Got there. Peed. Nothing. We were at the picnic for three hours. I drank water and lemonade and a coke and really anything I could get my hands on the whole time just so I would have to pee and I could check the TP. Lots of peeing and no AF. There was also a trampoline that I really really wanted to jump on with my kids but I decided maybe that wasn't a good idea.
Had another hour drive back home. About 45 minutes of that was spent with thoughts running through my head over whether I was pregnant or not. The other 15 minutes was spent hoping I could make it the rest of the way home without peeing my pants.
Still no AF! I guess that makes me 90% late. Doing my best not to get my hopes up because I don't want to be crushed. It is getting hard not to get my hopes up after how I've been feeling all week and the fact that right now I still have a sore throat and I feel like vomiting. I most certainly will be excited if I make it through tomorrow with no AF, but I still will be cautiously optimistic until after I get through 14 dpIUI with no AF.
I kept thinking that tomorrow was the day that AF watch would begin. Then I started thinking about past cycles which led me to looking up and over-analyzing every cycle in the past 6 months on FF. Around noon today I realized that AF watch begins today. During about 90% of my cycles, AF shows up in mid afternoon 12 days after I ovulate. On rare occasions it will hold off and I will wake up on the morning of 13 days after I ovulate to discover AF has arrived. I recall once recently that AF showed up around dinner time 12 dpo. Realizing around noon today that at some point in the next 24 hours I would find out if AF was late or not made me become quite crazy.
We had a picnic to go to today. Good, something to distract me from what was to come. We left right after I discovered today was the beginning of AF watch. I felt so crampy suddenly and my back was really aching for the entire hour drive there. So for the entire hour I figured I would arrive at the picnic and discover AF had arrived. Got there. Peed. Nothing. We were at the picnic for three hours. I drank water and lemonade and a coke and really anything I could get my hands on the whole time just so I would have to pee and I could check the TP. Lots of peeing and no AF. There was also a trampoline that I really really wanted to jump on with my kids but I decided maybe that wasn't a good idea.
Had another hour drive back home. About 45 minutes of that was spent with thoughts running through my head over whether I was pregnant or not. The other 15 minutes was spent hoping I could make it the rest of the way home without peeing my pants.
Still no AF! I guess that makes me 90% late. Doing my best not to get my hopes up because I don't want to be crushed. It is getting hard not to get my hopes up after how I've been feeling all week and the fact that right now I still have a sore throat and I feel like vomiting. I most certainly will be excited if I make it through tomorrow with no AF, but I still will be cautiously optimistic until after I get through 14 dpIUI with no AF.
Labels: 2 week wait, fertility friend
posted by AM | 4:30 PM
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