4w, 5d
I'm kinda tired. Either that or I am just lazy. I am thinking I am tired though. Sitting on the porch watching the kids play was just too much for me this evening so I brought one of the chaise lounge chairs up so I could lay down and watch. DH, being the fine upstanding guy that he is, has already announced that every time I complain he is going to remind me that this is what I worked for over a year to have. I told him I wasn't complaining, just stating the fact that I was tired, and now I have the ability to nap all the time guilt free.
Been so lethargic this weekend. Sadly, I am already tired of being tired. There are things I want to do, things that have to be done, and I just can't get up and do them. Then I end up depressed that I am sitting around on my butt and not positively adding to the world.
Turns out I suck at either following directions or else the due date predictor I used was dumb. My due date is February 8, so 2 weeks sooner than I thought. This of course means this kid will come early just in time to fall into the giant cluster of family birthdays around the holidays.
On the day that we were matched with our sons through adoption (knew that these kids far away would be our sons, but we still had months before we could bring them home), DH and I bought these stuffed animals for them. We were in a toy store today and I was really tempted to pick up a stuffed animal for this baby. I decided I better hold off, wait until the u/s just to make sure. I am feeling good about it though. Maybe because I feel so different this time around than I did last time. Last time around, I didn't even know I was pregnant until 5w, 5d (which is today). I recall having a headache for 3 days straight and feeling a little lazy for a day or two but that was it. Maybe it is all just a blur because all I can really remember is how it ended. On my side this time too is that this absolutely can not be a rudimentary horn pregnancy since I no longer have a rudimentary horn. Even my chances of a tubal pregnancy are cut in half since I am down to one tube. Trying my best to look at the positives but can't get out of my mind all the things that can go wrong. Every time I have a cramp I am sure I miscarrying. Already in my mind I am thinking of goals to reach. First up is to make it to the u/s on Tuesday. Then on to see the heartbeat. Then through the first trimester. It seems silly to think of them as "goals". It isn't like it is anything I have any control over. Other than being good to my body, the rest is up to nature or God or fate or whatever it is I believe in at the moment.
If all goes well at the u/s, I think we are going to tell DH's parents next Sunday. I am sure we will tell my parents shortly after that but I don't know when. We are going on vacation with them in two weeks and I am not sure if we should tell them while we are on vacation or before we go. Telling them while we are there is going to increase the chances of non-stop conversation for a week long from my mother about a new grandchild. Then again, if we are on vacation, she will be cut off from the rest of the world and far less likely to spill the beans.
Been so lethargic this weekend. Sadly, I am already tired of being tired. There are things I want to do, things that have to be done, and I just can't get up and do them. Then I end up depressed that I am sitting around on my butt and not positively adding to the world.
Turns out I suck at either following directions or else the due date predictor I used was dumb. My due date is February 8, so 2 weeks sooner than I thought. This of course means this kid will come early just in time to fall into the giant cluster of family birthdays around the holidays.
On the day that we were matched with our sons through adoption (knew that these kids far away would be our sons, but we still had months before we could bring them home), DH and I bought these stuffed animals for them. We were in a toy store today and I was really tempted to pick up a stuffed animal for this baby. I decided I better hold off, wait until the u/s just to make sure. I am feeling good about it though. Maybe because I feel so different this time around than I did last time. Last time around, I didn't even know I was pregnant until 5w, 5d (which is today). I recall having a headache for 3 days straight and feeling a little lazy for a day or two but that was it. Maybe it is all just a blur because all I can really remember is how it ended. On my side this time too is that this absolutely can not be a rudimentary horn pregnancy since I no longer have a rudimentary horn. Even my chances of a tubal pregnancy are cut in half since I am down to one tube. Trying my best to look at the positives but can't get out of my mind all the things that can go wrong. Every time I have a cramp I am sure I miscarrying. Already in my mind I am thinking of goals to reach. First up is to make it to the u/s on Tuesday. Then on to see the heartbeat. Then through the first trimester. It seems silly to think of them as "goals". It isn't like it is anything I have any control over. Other than being good to my body, the rest is up to nature or God or fate or whatever it is I believe in at the moment.
If all goes well at the u/s, I think we are going to tell DH's parents next Sunday. I am sure we will tell my parents shortly after that but I don't know when. We are going on vacation with them in two weeks and I am not sure if we should tell them while we are on vacation or before we go. Telling them while we are there is going to increase the chances of non-stop conversation for a week long from my mother about a new grandchild. Then again, if we are on vacation, she will be cut off from the rest of the world and far less likely to spill the beans.
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