4w, 1d

I am now officially pregnant. In the words of the nurse at my RE's office, "You are most certainly pregnant." Got my blood drawn this morning, obviously. I was a bit anxious about getting the results, mostly because I needed to know if I was going to be feeling really stupid for thinking I was pregnant when I was not. Then when the nurse called I had to pretend to be all shocked and excited about pregnant when I really knew that I was.

I have to go back on Friday to have more blood work to see if my hcg level doubled. Today it was 400. At this stage in the game, they usually looking for a hcg level around 100. So of course I did exactly what I knew I shouldn't and got on to google to see what I could find about high hcg levels. Apparently a high hcg level can mean absolutely nothing. Or can mean a pregnancy with multiples. Or it can mean a molar pregnancy which is a bad thing that happens in 1 out of every 1,000 pregnancies and doesn't result in a baby and I am not going to explain anymore about that. If you happened to come across my blog because you googled something about high levels of hcg during pregnancy, just step away from the search engines... now.

Probably next week I'll have an u/s if everything looks fine with my bloodwork on Friday. I will be released from my RE once they can see a heartbeat, probably around 6-7 weeks. There is no plans for me to see my RE again. I asked about getting referred to a peri since I'm likely considered high risk. The nurse said that she would ask my RE about it and get back to me by Friday if he recommended it. After everything I have read about UU's and pregnancy, no matter what he says I am going to try to track down a peri as long as everything ends up fine with my u/s. I would rather be over treated than not treated enough.

I'm already making a list of things to do in my head, even though I know there is no point in doing anything until after I see how the u/s goes. First on the list is finding a new ob. I really love my ob but he is over an hour away and doesn't deliver at any hospital anywhere near me. I already feel bad about potentially leaving him but it just doesn't make sense to stay.

I felt pretty much normal today, which was way better than I was feeling the past few days. My uterus area is still a little tender and my stomach muscles feel like I have been doing sit-ups. That is about it though.

I emailed DH to tell him I was pregnant. I figured the rest of this process has been anti-climatic, should probably keep with it!