12w

I made it! I decided to set little goals for this pregnancy and my first one was 12 weeks. I have read that most miscarriages happen before 12 weeks so here I am. Next goal is 14 weeks because at that point the chance of miscarriage goes down even more. In honor of making it this far, I decided to just tell everyone. That task was pretty easy. I just posted it in my status in facebook and within 10 minutes, I think everyone I have ever known now knows the news. In part I am glad everyone knows so I don't feel like I have to keep making excuses for why I never go anywhere anymore and really suck at answering emails. But of course this also means that if something goes wrong, I have the whole world to inform.

I called my OB yesterday to find out when I could stop using my progesterone suppositories. My RE said my OB would tell me when to stop using them and it would be around 12 weeks. My OB said I could stop using them now. So, last night was the last night of that. I am hoping that maybe there is a chance that without that extra dose of progesterone in my body, life will hand me a little less sickness. Plus, I am now 12 weeks. Keeping my fingers crossed that magically that will cure me of this illness.

I am seriously considering going back to the high risk dr for my prenatal care. I'm just so paranoid about the possibility of incompetent cervix. I know my OB said that she would make sure my cervix was measured during all my u/s but I am just not sure that is enough to make me feel confident staying with her. She said specifically that she didn't think there was any correlation between having a UU and having incompetent cervix. I don't agree with that. As I mentioned before too, I am probably going to end up at the hospital in the city anyway. They will send me there if I go early or there are any complications or the babies have to spend any time in NICU. Maybe I should just plan on going there. I have an appointment with my OB next Friday so I guess I will see how that goes before I make a decision.

9w, 3d

I got my body pillow delivered and have slept with it two nights now. Super comfortable... except... I guess it is a bit more fluffy than I need. I am just not used to sleeping with a pillow between my legs to begin with and I think my poor legs are forced to be a bit further apart than natural. Now my butt muscles hurt. It is like I have been doing exercises to firm my butt but really all I have been doing is sleeping... which is actually pretty awesome!

I've been plagued with killer headaches. I read something the other day that headaches are common at this point in pregnancy. Now I am not feeling so hot, feel like puking all the time, and my head is about to explode. Good times. I LOVE being pregnant. I've popped a few Tylenol in the past couples days. It kinda took the edge off today but there was no beating that headache I had yesterday.

Today was my first official OB appointment. I used to see this ob/gyn when I was 18-23 years old or so but haven't seen her in the past 8 or so years. She is great and has a wonderful bedside manner. She was also really easy to talk to. I voiced my concerns about incompetent cervix and she told me that she wasn't really concerned. Yeah, easy for her to say. However, she did say that I will receive some additional monitoring because of the twin thing and she will just make sure that my cervix is measured during all my u/s. We talked a little about birth. She said that if everything is fine of course she would be good with me doing a vaginal birth but I can pretty much expect a c-section since my uterus is strangely shaped increasing my chances of breech babies and the fact that there are two of them in there. I always really wanted to attempt a vaginal birth (with lots of drugs) just so I could get the full having a baby experience. After being diagnosed with a UU, I came to realize that my chances of getting to have a vaginal birth were greatly reduced. Since becoming pregnant with twins, I have pretty much given up on the thought and am perfectly fine with them cutting these kids out and me avoiding labor pains all together. Right now I will only be upset if I don't get to be conscious during the birth of my kids. I missed the birth of my first two so I would really like to be there this time.

Anyway, back to the appointment. She did a quick exam and some test for bacteria that is normal in adults but could be harmful for the babies. She said she could definitely tell there was something going on in my uterus. She said that just by the looks of my cervix, it looked perfectly normal, appeared to have good blood flow, and was centered instead of being pushed off to the side like my uterus is. She figured she would give listening for heartbeats a try with the doppler. Said there was a chance she could hear them but likely wouldn't be able to hear them until around 12 weeks. She found my heart beat rather quickly and noted that it was really strong so hopefully that meant good blood supply to my uterus. She was able to locate at least one of the baby's heartbeats. There was a bit of an echo which could have either been just an echo or else the other baby's heartbeat. She gave me this huge excited smile. I smiled back. I guess I was supposed to be overwhelmed with the miracle of life within me but since I have seen and heard the heartbeats before, I guess I just wasn't that fascinated. Or maybe my head was just pounding with so much pain at the moment I couldn't think of much else.

Got our first bill from my hospital stay while on vacation. The original cost of service was over $10,000. Insurance covered most of that. Still, what an expensive vacation!

Tomorrow is the big concert day that I am hoping I survive. I am far more nervous about going to the concert than I am excited about it at this point.