The Clock is Ticking

My RE said to expect AF to show up within 4 weeks of my surgery. I was shocked when I peed this afternoon and realize that AF had arrived. That was fast. Then the cramps hit. I figured it would be one hell of an AF since my uterine lining was all big and cushy from the pregnancy and the progesterone suppositories. The cramps hit hard and fast. For the most part the cramps seem to be on my right side (where my UU is). I can feel... something... on the left where the horn was. Usually the pain where I feel like something in my abdomen is going to burst open any second doesn't hit until a day or two after AF shows up, and that pain is ALWAYS on the left where the rudimentary horn would be. I have always figured that pain was associated with the blood from the lining in my horn not having an exit point. That pain should not happen anymore. It better not.

I am pretty sure my RE said I could start trying again this cycle if I wanted to since the surgery wouldn't affect my uterus, just the horn. I knew last week when he said that, that starting the first cycle would be too soon. Just the thought of driving back and forth to the city to be monitored exhausts me, since I am pretty tired all the time still as it is. Of course there is the emotional aspect of it all too. I'm definitely not ready to attempt another 2ww at this time. I'd rather just sit back and wait for my body to find its new normal and for me to be clued in on what might be normal for my redesigned female parts. So, I guess next month/cycle I'll probably be ready to be back at it again.