Weirdness

Been feeling this weird pain. It isn't overly painful pain. Just weirdness. More of a burning and maybe a little pressure from time to time. Mostly can feel it when I go from a sitting position to a standing position. It is pretty low, like maybe two inches or so from my hip bone, very localized. I am thinking it is some sort of new kind of cramping I am getting pre-AF with my newly designed insides post-rudimentary horn removal.

I have heard people complaining about ovary pain during a cycle that was canceled due to cysts on the ovaries. I have no clue when in the cycle that pain usually comes. Towards the beginning of this cycle, I could feel a little lower back tenderness but I constantly have lower back pain so I have no idea if that was related to messed up ovaries or messed up back. This weird burning stuff I am feeling lately is definitely not ovaries because this weirdness is in my front, not in the back where I usually feel my ovaries.

I think AF is coming this week. Fertility Friend (FF) doesn't seem to have a clue when or if I ovulated. It changed the day I ovulated twice and now has decided that I haven't ovulated at all. I am not surprised really. My chart is crazy and it doesn't help that I was sick around the time I usually ovulate and had this one really crazy, off the charts temperature. Based on the last date that FF suggested I ovulated, AF should show up by Friday. If that is the case, I would actually be in town to try in April. It would be cutting it close though. Plus, I'll need to hurry up and order my meds and keep my fingers crossed that AF actually shows up and that nothing goes crazy this cycle that would delay the IUI which would then interfere with when I am going to be out of town. In conclusion, way too many "ifs" and "maybes" so I'm just planning on sticking with the original plan to wait until May.

Who knows, maybe I'm pregnant! Ha! I don't know why I do this to myself every month. I always keep my mind open to the possibility that there could be some miracle in my uterus. After three years of no birth control and one year of doing everything possible to perfectly time sex, you would think that I would be completely over thinking I could get pregnant the normal way. Somehow I always remember, there is always a chance. Not that I am ever the least bit surprised or let down when AF shows up anymore.