Post-Op

I had my post-op appointment yesterday. Everything looks fine and is healing well. My RE said that we are good to go and can start up injectables next month. He also mentioned another alternative although he confused me. He said if we wanted to try on our own that we could use an ovulation predictor kit. When we got a positive I could come in and have an u/s done to see if I was going to be ovulating from the good ovary. I would assume we would then do an IUI because otherwise, why not just use an ovulation kit and have sex at the right time and have a 50% chance of ovulating from the correct ovary? I told him we are going to try the injectables/IUI two more cycles and hopefully that will work and we won't need to worry about the ovulation predictor kits. I also brought up my concern about doing another injectable cycle and having most of my good follicles on the left (tubeless) side. I told him I would rather just cancel the cycle all together than continue on with it just with hopes that the good right side would somehow manage to produce something worthwhile. I don't know if he really understood or heard me though. One good thing is that he said that my UU is really well developed.

I've been feeling way better. All that remains is a little soreness by my largest incision on the right side. I still have a couple little stitches sticking out of that incision as well as the one in my belly button. I am surprisingly good emotionally too. In the dead of winter, I always start looking forward to warm weather and all the things I am going to do when the snow melts and the temperature consistently involves double digits. The activities that I am looking forward to might not even be possible if I am pregnant. Now that our kids are getting more portable and capable, there are things that we can finally do with them that won't require loads of baby gear. There are definite advantages to being free of baby gear. So I am feeling better, more like I was before. If this works, good. If not, it just wasn't meant to be. That isn't to say that I won't be drowning in misery if I don't get pregnant, but at least I know now that the misery will be temporary. Our plan was to give this infertility treatment stuff a try and if it didn't work out to save up for another adoption. I'm not even feeling that now. But I feel no pressure to make a decision either. If I don't end up knocked up, it is going to be quite a while before we would even have enough money to consider another adoption. Maybe even so long that by the time we have the money, I will have no desire to be a mom to a baby and go through all that baby gear stuff again. There are deeper (probably even more selfish reasons) why I don't know if we should adopt again too, but I am not going to get into all of that now. It is just nice to know that I don't have to decide on anything now. We can just go ahead with our plans for infertility treatment and think about nothing else. Just one step at a time. I'm sure life will fall into step eventually.