Cycle 2, CD 7

Same shit, different day. Good thing I have an alarm set on my phone to remind me when to do my Gonal-F injections. Otherwise, I would probably forget. I guess that is what happens when you are on your second cycle. There was a point today when I was 100% sure that this cycle is going to work. No idea why. It wasn't even like I was thinking, "If this works..." I was thinking how I will be pregnant. I'm just generally not a very optimistic person. Not that I can't look on the bright side, I just prefer to play out bad scenarios in my head and rehearse how I will react to them, instead of thinking the best is going to happen only to be let down. Being optimistic is scary.

Other than feeling really bloated back on day 4 of this cycle, I haven't really had any side effects from the drugs that I can definitely say they are a result of the drugs. I find myself getting misty eyed over the dumbest things at time, but I am like that without drugs sometimes. My sense of smell might be a bit enhanced, either that or my house really needs cleaned and smells enough for me to notice.

Another fun day tomorrow. Early appointment for b/w and u/s. DH has to go to watch the kids. Got to get him to work after that and DS1 to school. That is if unless school doesn't get canceled again.